[OPEN] it hurts to remember.

[deacon reid rudman]

"I'll get you your ice cream." He said with a smile, gently rubbing his side. He leaned back in his chair, honestly not minding if Connor got ice cream before he had to be bed ridden. He just couldn't eat it with him. He had enough problem, and having not eaten food in a long time, he probably would end up being sick forever after eating. Even the thought of eating made him sick.

"Any other requests before I tie you down and deprive you of human interaction?" He teased, squeezing his side playfully.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor smiled, squirmed faintly. "L-love me forever?" Hewhispered, smiled growing as he tilted his head to gaze up at him, kissed under his chin. He was tired again though, knew he wouldn't do much more than sleep while he wasn't allowed to go anywhere.

[deacon reid rudman]

"Until the day we die." He whispered, hugging him closer as his body grew heavier. He ran his hands slowly over his back and side before he reached up, running his fingers slowly through his hair. He kissed the side of his head, closing his own eyes as well.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor let out a soft breath at that, eyes closed and chest rising and falling slowly with normal breaths. He was soon asleep again, unable to manage staying awake for long. He clung to Deacon, shifting his weight occasionally with a grimace.

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon held him close as he slept, content to just watch the rise and fall of his chest as he breathed. He slowly ran his fingers through his hair, laying his head back on the chair to look at him. He wished he really could have forever with Connor, to prove to him that he really would love him until the end of time. But he knew better than to get his hopes up and ask. 'I just wanna be with him. And if that means I have to like the time I have, then so be it.' He thought, kissing his forehead.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor smiled in his sleep at the kiss. Something in him relaxed, and he nestled closer. A hand slid to his own stitched torso, cringing faintly. The door opened and closed with the quiet entrance of Seth and Cala, but Connor didn't wake.

Seth smiled at who must have been Connor's boyfriend, and leaned his crutches against the bed now that his shattered shin was steady enough not to need a wheelchair. Cala smiled shyly, looking down at the little girl then over at Connor again as he shifted his weight in discomfort. "Here..." She approacjed, careful not to touch Deacon, and ran a hand over the surgical wounds. Connor drew in a breath and eased up as a bit of the pain was releived. "Thought we'd say hi...but we'll see him later."

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon looked up as the two teens came in. He was happy that Connor had so many people to care for him. He knew the only people who would bother to come see himself would be Thatcher and Dallas. And Ace, of course.

"Yeah, he just fell asleep." He said quietly, looking over at Bandit. She sniffled, sitting up in the bed.

"Daddy." She cried, reaching for Connor.

"Shh." Deacon said, gently running his fingers through Connor's hair. Bandit sniffled again, rubbing sleepily at her eyes. She grabbed her chocolate milk before reaching up for the girl.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor stirred faintly at Bandit's cry but didn't wake, pressing even closer.

Seth sat on the edge of the bed with a wince and looked over at the girl curiously, pleased Connor was doing well socially now, unlike before he had dropped out of school. Cala followed his gaze, and when the girl reached out, she sat down next to her.

[deacon reid rudman]

Bandit looked from one to the other, obviously trying to decide which she wanted to play with. Deacon hugged Connor closer, watching her. He reached over, taking the chocolate milk from her. She pouted, reaching for it. Deacon shook his head, knowing it would make her sick now that it was hot.

"Deacon?" He looked up to see Harper. "I'm running to get lunch. Do you want anything?" He shook his head and she left, her head down. Deacon rocked Connor gently, looking over at Bandit. She reached up, touching the boy's cheek.

"Hi." She said.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor stirred again at the voices, but was too lost in exhaustion to open his eyes. He listened halfheartedly, then nestled against Deacon's chest with a smile.

Seth smiled down at the little girl, wondering what Adele was up to today briefly. "Hi," he murmured, blowing brown hair from his eyes.