[CLOSED] the more things change...

[shaun michel foster]

"I'm always a mess." She said, walking slowly over to sit down on his leg so he couldn't get up. "They're lucky to have you as a dad, Jacob. There's not a single thing about you that's not wonderful. Just like your brothers. I don't think they were put here because they were an accident. I think they're here to show you that there's always a brighter side to everything. I bet if I ask Marc, he's gonna say your face lit up when you saw them." She gently played with his hair, hoping it would make him feel a little better. "If I had a dad half as great as you, I'd be the luckiest girl ever. Cause I know you're not gonna hurt them. You're not gonna let anything happen to them."

[jacob roefaux gryffon]

Jacob's jaw trembled. He was mad he was crying. He almost never cried. "There's a lot not wonderful about me Shaun.. I killed my own father because I'm an idiot, okay? There's a lot.." He didn't dare move, didn't want to hurt her. "I just-...I don't want them growing up and thinking they have one parent because of another stupid thing I did Shaun.... I want them two know who you are... In this situation, Drew has nothing over you.. Those are your son and daughter in there, Shaun... They need a moma they can love. And she's sitting right here, as gorgeous as ever.. It doesn't matter that we aren't a couple..it matters that they aren't like us with only one parent.. It's scary, believe me...but as soon as you see them you'll understand.. Please Shaun... I can't do this by myself.. I dunno how to be a dad.. I've already fucked up being a good son and brother..."

[shaun michel foster]

Shaun sighed, gently running her fingers over his shoulder. "I've seen them, Jacob.. I saw all of them when Marc laid them there. You didn't have to see your other three babies dead, either.." She mumbled, running her hand over her leg. "I just don't want to know that the babies I had are gonna grow up and in a couple years, everyone's gonna be moma. They don't know any better, wolves or not.. We always knew Marc was different, but my dad kept telling us he was just like us.. And we took it and ran with it. None of us knew any better.. Dad said he was a wolf, he had to be a wolf, right? And then Marc turns out with dark hair.. And dark eyes.. But he was still our Marc. And she's still going to be moma. Because they don't understand." She reached up, brushing her hair back.

"I don't wanna just be moma when I'm around.. When it's my turn to keep them.. And I can't hurt Shawn like that.. I.. I know I love him.. That regardless of everything I wanna be with Shawn.." She could hear the puppies crying, and started to cry herself, reaching up to rub her face. "They sound so precious.. Like despite being in horrible pain all night long, all morning.. It was worth it because they're here now, you know?"

[jacob roefaux gryffon]

Jacob began to cry again. "She'll never be their moma," He insisted brokenly, dropping his head back into his arms with a shaky breath. "It was worth it Shaun." He frowned, eyebrows furrowing. "A-and..And you're just throwing it away." The words were half a growl. "Don't you get it? Shawn doesn't mind! He was pissed, blaming himself for stuff earlier..he doesn't want you to hate them, throw them out like that. And sure you all fucking ran with it when they said Marc was your own. But that didn't hurt him any less finding out when he was older, huh?" He rubbed his face, tolting his head back, could tell she was crying. "I just can't see how you could turn them away like this, Shaun.. Not so little.. And then they're gonna grow up, and they will know because they sure as hell ain't know fallen angel! Do you want them to know you as the mother who walked out? Or would you rather them know you at least fucking tried?" He glanced over at her, tears running down his cheeks. "You can't just push them off to me like this..it isn't fair..they need their werewolf moma, Shaun. Y-you gotta help them learn to shift, a-..and feed them the proper milk they need to get big and strong..you gotta name your little daughter..." He wiped at his face. "I can't do this by myself..." Gritting his teeth, he looked down at the gauze. "Cos believe me, it's all 'bout to be the fucking death of me." Getting up, he rubbed at blurred eyes, stumbling for the house. Shawn tried asking it he was okay and he snapped at him, picked up the crying puppies and carried them downstairs to sit on the sofa there. Bu he was crying to much to shut them up, began to cry even harder in agitation. He didn't feel like it was fair to him. And he had promised to love them and take care of them, didn't feel like it was fair to him, either. "Stop crying, babies.." He begged brokenly. "Daddy's right h-here.." He wiped at his face with a trembling hand, bowed his head as his shoulders shook.

[shaun michel foster]

Shaun watched him get up and go, and bit down on her lip again. She couldn't have him die.. He needed to live. His brothers needed him. She followed him despite the pain, sitting down on the sofa next to him. She gently ran her hand over one of the puppies, looking down at it. They were small, but so perfect despite the entire mess they had to live in. "You don't have to do it alone, Jake.. Just please don't die and leave me with them.. I can't do it alone either.." She picked one of them up, hoping it would stop crying so loudly. She hugged it close, kissing the top of it's head. "You wanna raise them right, we can raise them right. We just gotta figure out how a human is supposed to nurse two puppies because the doctor told her not to shift."

[jacob roefaux gryffon]

Jacob bit his lip, looking over at her. He didn't want her to try and not like them for them. He only hoped she was sincere about all of this. He watched her pick up the puppy, and hugged the other one close, turning his fave away as he fell into a fit of husky coughs. "I guess we'll have to get formula, then.." He huffed as he cleared his throat, looked down at them. "You have to name our daughter, though." He managed to smile faintly her way, reached out and set the little boy next to her. "And he's gonna look like you, you know?"

[shaun michel foster]

"Our daughter.." She couldn't help but smile, holding it close. "I wanna name her Tatum. That was my mom's name." She said, gently running her fingers over the pup's head. "I don't wanna not feed them though.. These are the only puppies I get.." She said quietly, picking up the other one to look at it. And it did look like her. She hugged them both close, rocking them gently. She'd love to have more one day, but she just didn't know if that would happen with Shawn. But she wasn't going to leave him, either. "Daddy won't know what to do with a little girl, huh? Me and you are the only girls." She chuckled, kissing her head.

[jacob roefaux gryffon]

Jacob chuckled softly. And it was as if nothing had ever just happened. Here she was with her son and daughter. Like she was supposed to be. "Tatum and Conrad?" He offered with a faint smile, drew in a steadying breath. "My father's name." He bit his lip, glanced her way, then at the puppies in her arms.

[shaun michel foster]

"Daddy doesn't know anything about being a girl, huh? He's gonna teach your brother to be rotten." She teased, smiling over at him. She sat them in her lap, gently running her fingers over their tiny heads. "I have my moma's maiden name as my middle name. And I'm named after my grandpa. And besides, Tatum and Conrad are cute and those names need bringing back. Especially on two cute little puppies." She looked over at Jacob, searching his face. "Don't let Charlie squish our babies." She said with a laugh. "Or Tyler."

[jacob roefaux gryffon]

Jacob smiled faintly. "Tyler's been busy all morning, he's barely seen them." He leaned over, hugging her gently. "Shawn seems to like them, though. "And Marc." He rubbed at his face, sprawling on the bed, and grunted as one of the pups tried pulling at his shirt.