[CLOSED] when is everything gon' be alright?

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon wrapped his arms tighter around him, hugging him as close as he could. "Then marry me, Connor.. As soon as you're better, marry me.. I want you have my last name.. I want you to be mine.. It's just so hard to pretend you're happy when your entire life is dying.. I need you, Connor.." He clung to him, trying so hard not to pass out. But it was getting harder and harder to cling to consciousness, to stay alert.

"I love you.. So much.." He breathed, slowly tracing his fingers over his jaw as he looked blindly over at him, all the light gone from his eyes. Even if he was with Connor, he had still given up all hope of being happy. 'Everything I love is slipping away..' He thought drowsily.

[connor crayze sykes]

"I-I can be happy, Deacon.. With you I can be... A-and I have longer now, with allbnew org-gans...." He bjt his lip, hugging him tightly, and cast a wary, uneasy glance around the room. "I-I l-love you, too, Deacon..." He whispered, waved his hand in front of his eyes, biting his lip with worry as he drew in a shaky breath. "Deacon...?"

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon just closed his eyes, his arms wrapping around Connor as tight as he could. He wondered if he might have the parasite, but knew this was only heaven's way of torturing him. He knew he didn't deserve Connor. And they had taken away Bandit. "I just need.. to sleep.." He mumbled, moving closer to him.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor hugged him tightly. "Y-you're okay..." He whispered, kissed him tenderly on the lips. He closed his own eyes, as exhausted as ever. But he knew he wouldn't get any sleep, he was too edgy, uneasy, as if when on drugs. He shuddered, peering warily through tired eyes for a moment, willing the cries in his head to stop.

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon met the kiss gently, keeping his arms as tight around Connor as he could manage. He started to cough again before he laid back, closing his eyes again. It wasn't long before he finally passed out, clinging to Connor for all he was worth. But it did him no good; he was in hell, screaming to be let out.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor tossed and turned uneasily, clinging desperately to him, crying softly into his chest. He drew in quick breaths, shuddering, and tried ignoring the voices, and now nightmares since he was starting to drift. He jerked awake, gagging softly, and buried his face back in Deacon's chest again with a broken cry.

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon started to sob, but in the heat, it didnt do much good. His tears just evaporated, his throat drying out. "I'm sorry!" He screamed, shoving at the spirits trying to drag him from the small walk way. "I'm sorry! I just want my life back! This isn't fair!"

"You don't deserve fair. You can't even keep your daughter." Someone said, and he looked around before he started to cry harder.

"I just want Connor! That's all I ever asked for!"

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor jerked awake, rolling over with a faint cry. "Deacon..." He whimpered, hugging him desperately, unaware that he really wasn't there. He coughed, could swear he saw the door open even though it didn't. He tried separating what the parasite wanted him to see from realitu,, but he couldn't, scrambling from the beef and backing up to the wall. The guy grinned, and then vanished. Connor let out a shaky breath, sliding down, breaths far too rapid. He hadn't taken his medication today, and the other antibiotics for his delusions were also wearing off, and it wasn't long before he was curled up, hands fisted in his hair as a panic attack took over.

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon started to sob again, hugging his knees close. "You don't deserve him. There's plenty of other people who want him. You're gonna stay down here with me while he suffers up there."

"No! I'm who he's supposed to be with! Me! No one else is taking care of him! It's me!" He cried, slamming his fists on the ground. "I didn't live this long to watch him die! Why's everyone gotta take him from me?!" He didn't realize he was awake and crying until he looked over at Connor. "Baby.." He mumbled, reaching for him.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor didn't look up, clutching at his head with a faint sound, breaths quick. He swallowed, remaining curled up tightly. He shuddered, body trembling with every breath, barely responded to Deacon's voice.