[CLOSED] i love you this big.

[deacon reid rudman]

"Maybe I don't need an excuse to drag you to the park." Deacon said, squeezing Connor's hand. He watched Bandit bounce along in front of them, stopping occasionally to pick a flower. She would look up and hand it to Thatcher, who had her other hand. He smiled and took it, leaning down to pick her up.

"You're such a pretty princess." He told her, and she giggled, throwing her arms around his neck. She waved back at Deacon and Connor, and Deacon waved back at her.

"Hey baby." He said, reaching over to poke her nose. She giggled, hiding her face in Thatcher's neck. Deacon wrinked his nose, then leaned over to kiss Connor's cheek. "Me and Thatcher found this place a couple days ago when we brought Bandit to the park." Deacon said, gently pulling Connor through a narrow weaving path. But at the end of it was an old gazebo, almost frozen in time with it's climbing ivy and rose bushes.

"Pretty, isn't it?" He asked, blowing a bubble with his gum before he sucked it back into his mouth. He pulled Connor up the steps, leaning over to kiss him gently. "I'm sorry for everything mean I ever said.." He whispered, reaching his hand up to gently stroke Connor's cheek. "And I'm sorry for every mistake I made, and every promise I couldn't keep. I'm sorry I didn't understand that you're sick. And I'm so.. so sorry I don't know a way to make you immortal.." He kissed his cheek gently, his other hand slowly running up and down his back. "But most of all, I'm sorry I threw your ring." He reached down and carefully slipped it off of Connor's finger, slipping it into his pocket. Then he got down on one knee, pulling a new ring out of his other pocket. He bit his lip, looking up at Connor. He couldn't remember a time he was ever so nervous. 'Go big or go home, Rudman.' He thought. If Connor didn't have long left, the least he deserved was a proper proposal.

"So I went and got you a new one.. One I'm only going to take off to put it back on on our wedding day. So.. Will you marry me?" He asked, his green eyes watching Connor.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connir smirked faibtly, holding his hand as they walked. He watched Bandit and Thatcher quietly, unable to help but think that she would be in good hands once they were gone. He felt terrible with the idea of leaving her without saying goodbye. Now that he was able to at least keep the parasite at bay and was slowly getting rid of it until they had a full cure, he was doing a lot better. In the next few Weeks rhey said it should be pretty much gone and he should for the most part be back to his old self. Meaning a he had left to worry about was trying to live as long as he could, even so sick. Sure, the organs were working well, he felt better than he had in a long time. But at a check up the other day, he had been told that whatever it was, it was still spreading like cancer, already creeping into the new organs...

He looked up, following Deacon, and drew in a breath as he gazed around. The place was gorgeous. Biting at his lip, he swallowed while he listened to Deacon, hugged him tight and kissed him softly. "I-I know you are..." He murmured.

He bit his lip as Deacon slid off his ring, watched him drop to his knee. A smile passed his lips at the new proposal, breaths wavering. Gentle tears started down his cheeks. "Of course.." He murmured, let Deacon slip on the ring. He crouched, hugging him tight and knocking him back gently on the grass, head on his chest. He kissed his shoulder gently. "I love you."

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon smiled, wrapping his arms tightly around Connor. He gently tipped Connor's chin to him, kissing him softly. He ran his hand slowly over his cheek, looking over at him. He felt bad that Connor didn't have very long, but mostly he felt bad because he had ruined some of the time he could have spent with him. He didn't want to remember the bad times, but he felt guilty. "I love you too.." He breathed, kissing him again before he rolled over onto his back, pulling Connor with him. "As soon as you're feeling better, we're gonna get married." He said, gently running his hands up and down Connor's back as he looked up at him.

He smiled as Bandit toddled over, a flower tucked behind her ear. "Looky me." She said, sitting down beside them. Deacon reached over, gently stroking her hair.

"Yes. You're very beautiful." He said with a smile, kissing her cheek. He watched her toddle off to go look at the roses, playing with one of Thatcher's necklaces around her neck. "I have the most attractive family." He teased, kissing Connor's nose.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor smiled, gently kissing along Deacon's jaw lovingly as he listened to him. "I-It's gonna be s-soon.." He insisted softly, nestling close. He jumped faintly as Bandit spoke, but smiled up at her, relaxing again as he watched her. "Yeah?" He murmured playfully at the comment Deacon made. "So d-do I..." He leaned up, kissing him slowly.

[deacon reid rudman]

Deacon smiled, gently cupping his cheek. He kissed him slowly, his tongue tracing over his bottom lip before he pulled away, looking over at him. "We're just going to think about now and stop worrying about how long you have left. I'm tired of dwelling on the fact you're gonna e gone some day. I'm just glad I have you here." He said, kissing him again. "I don't know what I'd do if I hadn't met you."