[CLOSED] we die young.

[mathieu 'mat' darren blank]

"No, you cant.. I'm not letting you go, Dylan.." He mumbled, curling close to him, his arms still tight.

"I love you too.. I just.. I want you back.. so bad.. You've been my life for five years. That's kinda hard to drop.. It's kind of hard to realize that.. this is your worst nightmare.." He sniffled, trying not to cry.

[dylan flambyte parker]

"Shh.." Dylan murmured soothingly, rubbing at his back, running fingers through his hair. His voice was void of emotion now. He was afraid of crying anymore, done dealing with the tears.

He gazed across the water, wondering what it was like to drown. Was it as bad as going up in flames? Gradualy he closed his eyes, breaths slow, just listening to every breath, every sound Mat made. He was really here... It had been so long..

[mathieu 'mat' darren blank]

"I don't wanna shh.." He mumbled, but fell silent anyways, He rubbed at an eye, but his make up still didn't come off. He ran his hand up and down Dylan's chest, tears still falling down his cheeks. The ring on his finger hurt him the most. 'Three years it's been there.. And that's where it'll stay.. Even if I'll never have him back..' He thought, wrapping his arm around him again. He said he wasn't letting go, and he wouldn't.

"I love you.." He whispered.

[dylan flambyte parker]

"I love you too.." Dylan mumbled, tasting sand. He didn't bother spit it out, closing his eyes again inside. At some point he felt a wave crash up, and he pulled his foot from the water, getting up and carrying Mat farther from the waters edge before lying down again.

He yawned, sand crunching agains his teeth, and spit softly. He didn't know what time it was, just getting dark or if it had been dark for awhile.

He didn't care about the time anymore, curled up in the sand again, tears dripping down his cheeks as he struggled to find sleep or comfort or something. He didn't know what to do anymore.

[mathieu 'mat' darren blank]

Mat closed his eyes, curling close to Dylan. He kept his arms tight around him, not sure how much longer he would have with Dylan. He knew he was going to have to leave sooner or later, and go back to his boyfriend. He couldn't stay with Mat forever.

"I'm glad I had the time I did with you.." He whispered, tears falling down his cheeks again. He closed them, resting his head on Dylan's chest. He listened to him breathe, guessing he was content to have the time he did. 'Forever was never real, batteries or not..' He thought, his grip loosening on Dylan. He turned over, pulling his knees close as he started to undo the vest he had had on for two years. He got it off and pulled it under his head, using it as a pillow.

[dylan flambyte parker]

"I'm sorry I couldn't give you forever..." He whispered softly. When Mat rolled over, Dylan wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled him closer.

He didn't know why he could touch him now, but it didn't matter, he just had to cherish the time he had with his long lost love.

[mathieu 'mat' darren blank]

"It's okay.." He whispered, working on untucking his shirt. It was like a show that had never ended, a show he had never gotten to take his costume off from. He felt Dylan's arms around him and gave up untucking his shirt, wrapping his arms around himself. The cold was gone, but it had been replaced by hurt, a horrible hurt he could never get rid of.

"Forever's just.. a word.. It's not real.. The day Britt learns to replace batteries in fucking clocks is the day forever will actually cross the line from dreams to reality.. I got two years with you before I died. That's close enough.." He put one arm under the vest, propping his head up. He closed his eyes, wondering if he would ever stop crying.

[dylan flambyte parker]

Dylan sighed, reaching and turning Mat's chin towards him. He kissed his tears away. "I'm sorry baby.." He mumbled. "I-...I wish I could do something more Mat.." He hugged him closer, kissing the side of his head absently. "I really wish I could..."

He sighed, wiping at his face. "I'm sick of crying already... You wear me out." He smiled faintly. "Then again, you're s'posed to, hm?" Just talking, trying to comfort them both.

[mathieu 'mat' darren blank]

"It used to be my job.." He said quietly, turning over on his back. He finally turned back to Dylan, wrapping his arms gently around him. This was as close as he was going to get to having back what he once had. He closed his eyes, burying his face in his neck. He kissed it gently, thinking of all the times they fell asleep, tangled in the blankets, their legs interlaced and their arms around each other.

"To the moon and back plus four, right?" He mumbled, his breath against his neck.

[dylan flambyte parker]

"I'll always match that..." He whispered softly. He tilted his head at the kiss. "I miss our innocence," He mumbled. "That last tour was the best and worst thing to ever happen to me..." He sighed softly, shivered a moment at the thoughts, then relaxed again.

"I don't want you to go.." He mumbled. "I don't wanna be alone." He shifted his weight some. "What's wrong with just cuddling Mat..? Just for awhile longer..."