[OPEN] no one's ever dreamed this big.

[kellin jon perrette]

Kellin sat down on a log in the sand, watching Jack try to build a sand castle in the sand. It wasn't working, but he was adamant about making one. Knox sat down beside him, and Kellin unzipped his guitar case. He pulled the guitar into his lap, strumming a few notes. He tuned it carefully, listening to Knox tell Jack he needed to go get water to make it.

"So what did the doctor say?" Knox asked, looking over at Kellin. Kellin looked up from his guitar and over at him.

"Uh.. He said he doesn't know what it is.. He said he thinks it's a late onset of paranoid schizophrenia. He gave me anxiety medicine to see if it works but it hasn't. So I dunno.. I go back next month." He shrugged, strumming his guitar again. He started playing a tune, listening to Knox sing along.

"You know I love it when you're down on your knees. And I'm a junkie for the way that you please.."

[cole manaj gryffon]

Cole stumbled through the trees, crying softly. He held a hand over the shallow cut on his wrist, had never cut himself before. But he didn't know what to do, hated when he couldn't be happy no matter how hard he tried, hated having to pretend even for Baz.... He would have gone to him, but he hadn't been home and he'd needed to run before Jacob and Tyler caught up. He heard voices and shrank back, hiccupped softly. Green, brown flecked eyes watched the others and he swallowed, looking away. The bleeding had stopped but he was too ashamed to go back right now.

[kellin jon perrette]

Knox looked over at the sound of someone in the leaves, but put it off as maybe it was an animal. He turned back to Kellin, who was playing something else now. Jack walked over, holding out his pail.

"In the city was a sinner. I done a lot of things wrong but I swear I'm a believer.." Kellin sang quietly and Jack started to dance, wiggling from side to side. Kellin smiled, reaching out to take his pail. "Thank you." He told him quietly.

"Fank you." Jack said, then started towards the tree line, peeking around one of the trees. "Pay? Pay wif me?"

"Jackson, get away from the trees. It's probably a bunny or something." Knox said, and Jack sighed, obviously hoping it was someone to play with. He walked back to Kellin, reaching out for his pail.

"But it's mine now." Kellin said with a pout.

"Mine." Jack said, his grey eyes watching Kellin's mismatched ones. "Unk'a Kelly, mine." He wined, and Kellin handed it back.

[cole manaj gryffon]

Cole drew in a breath and rounded the other side of the tree, waiting. He let out his breath as the boy left, green eyes closing for a moment before he began to creep behind them for the other side of the treeline. But not being a fullblood werewolf, and distracted by the scent of another, he tripped. Yelping faintly he glanced up fearfully and made to bolt for the trees. He didn't want any trouble, just wanted time alone to try and figure out what he was doing, wait for Baz to get home.

[kellin jon perrette]

Kellin and Knox looked up at the same time, Jack looking up a second later after he had fished a sea shell out of his bucket. The hairs on Kellin's arms stood up, sensing something about the boy was animal in nature. He didn't want to go after him, but he had seemed scared.

"It's okay." He said quietly, searching the boy's face. "You can play with Jack if you want to." He shifted his weight, fixing the guitar on his leg. Jack smiled over at him, waving a pale hand his way.

"Hi!" The toddler exclaimed, and Knox picked him up, dusting off the knees of his jeans. He sat him back down, Jack toddling over to Cole. He took his finger, pulling him with all his might back towards his failed castle. "Pay wif me? Peas?"

[cole manaj gryffon]

Cole stared at them, odd eyes startled. His jaw trembled and he lowered his gazs, a shaky breath passing his lips. He didn't want to be here anymore, had thought he could sit alone and watch the water. Be let the boy pull him, not daring look at the other two as he rubbed at his stinging wrist before sitting down in the sand. He dusted sand off his purple skinny jeans, fixing his jacket and scarf as he chewed on a snakebite.

[kellin jon perrette]

Jack handed him an extra shovel, and a few little sand molds. He started to shovel more sand into his bucket as Kellin strummed his guitar, trying to come up with another song. He chewed on his lip, looking out at the ocean.

"Why can't the doctor make a diagnosis?" Knox asked, dusting his hands off.

Kellin looked over, confused for a moment before it clicked. "Oh.. Cause I'm not hearing voices. He said if I could hear voices, he would be able to make a positive diagnosis, but since I only fit half of the required definition, he said I have to wait and see if I start hearing voices. It could've been a birth defect too. I dunno." He shrugged, his voice as quiet as ever.

"The dawn is breaking.. A light shining through. You're barely waking, and I'm tangled up in you.." He sang quietly, watching his hands. "I'm open, you're closed.. Where I follow, you'll go. I worry I won't see your face.. Light up again."

[cole manaj gryffon]

Cole absently pressed sand into the molds, listening to their hushed voices. After a moment he looked over his shoulder. "Why's your music so sad?" He whispered, realizing the guy seemed quiet just like him. He set the molds aside, picking at a string on his jeas, didn't raise his head. He just...didn't know where the happiness had gone. Just the other day he couldn't sit still he was so happy Sebastian was returning. Now he couldn't even find a reason to smile. Jacob's words when he saw his wrist still rang in his ears. 'This is why you need medication Cole! I can't sit and watch you hurt yourself now okay? I'm sorry I fucked up our lives, but that doesn't mean you have to make it worse!'

He knew Jacob had problems with his anger, but the words still hurt. He sniffed softly, getting to his feet and wandering towards the river, looking down.

[kellin jon perrette]

Kellin looked up at the question. He didn't understand how it was a sad song, but he wasn't going to ask. He didn't see a reason to. He ran through the songs he knew in his head, biting his lip. He started strumming a faster song than the other ones, the only song he could think of that wasn't sad.

"Flyin' down the fast lane, doing 95, ninety things on my mind. Don't know where the hell I'm going, but I'm going after you. I'm jumping on the last train, got this crazy kind of feeling that I can't explain; Don't know where the hell I'm going, but I'm going after you. And I know you think I'm crazy, and I dress up like I'm four. I don't do dinner and movies, but if I showed up at your door-"

"That's not happy, that's stupid." Knox said with a snort and Kellin forced a smile, it quickly dropping as he stopped strumming.

"I don't think I know any happy songs.." He said quietly.

[cole manaj gryffon]

Cole shrugged, not looking up. "Was just asking." Maybe they were happy and he just didn't see it right now. He ruffled the little boy's hair as he passed, starting towards the trees again. He had absolutely no clue where he was going, looked over at them with tear streaked cheeks, confused eyes.