[CLOSED] turn it all around or throw it all away.

[nevada 'vegas' jayvon hanson]

Nevada smiled, reaching over to brush the tears from his cheeks. He wished he could get closer, but he couldn't reach any further, not with the wires and tubes. He pulled his hand back, resting it on his stomach. He watched Zander wander out of the room, and looked back to Jayson. He got butterflies in his stomach and he blushed.

"You call me Vegas because of my name?" He asked, smiling a bit. "All I could think of when he said that was you.." He bit his lip, then rubbed his eye. One of his contacts came out and he realized he couldn't see without them. "Where's my glasses?" He asked, taking the other one out.

[jayson thomas christopher]

Jayson nodded faintly, slight indifference settling in because of shock, glad he at least-hopefully-was remembering things.

"This is my brother all over again," He muttered shakily under his breath, looking down at him as he took out his contacts. "I dunno, you collapsed at work, I was at home, just found out..."

[nevada 'vegas' jayvon hanson]

"Oh.. Okay." He said, setting the contact on the table. He looked around, but everything was a blur. He couldn't see his hand in front of his face. "I'm sorry.." He mumbled, laying back on the bed. He closed his eyes, figuring it was better than his blurry vision.

"Are you mad at me?" He asked, opening his eyes to look over at him. But he was just a blur. "I mean.. You looked so happy in those pictures and now you're all sad and.. I'm sorry.." He rubbed at an eye, hoping to keep the tears at bay. He reached over for him again, but hit the railing. He drew his hand back, looking down.

[jayson thomas christopher]

Jayson glanced at him, reaching to take his hand gently. "No, just pissed at the world," He mumbled. "Nothing new. First my brother dies in my fucking arms and comes back without a damned memory but my name, and now you-..." He swallowed again, turning his face away as he traced lines over and over on his hand.

[nevada 'vegas' jayvon hanson]

"But I'm gonna remember you, okay?" He held his hand tightly, aware of how much he wanted him to be there, how badly he wanted to see him. "I'm gonna remember, Jayson.." He scooted a little closer, but he seemed so far away.

"Don't be mad.. Everything's gonna be okay.. You're too amazing to forget.." He reached up to rub his eye again. "Something about you is different, Jayson.. And it's not just your eyes.. There's something about you that's different than any other boy.." He ran his thumb over Jayson's fingers. "Something that should feel like it's missing but it isn't.."

[jayson thomas christopher]

Jayson gazed over at him quietly. "I hope you remember, there's only so much shit I can take, Nevada..." He mumbled.

Leaning down, he kissed him softly on the lips. "You want me to go find your glasses?" He hoped not; he didn't want to leave.

[nevada 'vegas' jayvon hanson]

"I'll remember, okay? Everything. Right down to every word I ever said to you. I'm gonna remember okay?" He blushed at the kiss, reaching up to stroke his cheek. And image flashed in front of his eyes, Jayson pressed up against a shelf in a dark store as Nevada kissed him.

"No, I don't want my glasses." He said quietly, not wanting him to go. He wanted him to stay there, wanted to remember more about him.

"I kissed you in a dark store.." He mumbled, looking over in his general direction. Another flashback, then another, and another. Soon his head was spinning, everything coming at him entirely too fast.

"You said you had never liked a guy.." He bit his lip, squeezing his hand gently. "And I'd never actually had a relationship.."

[jayson thomas christopher]

"Okay," Jayson murmured, watching him. He smiled faintly as he mentioned their first kiss and part of the conersation after it, running his fingers gently through Nevada's hair.

"Yeah..." He murmured softly, not wanting to say anything that might alter the oncome of thoughts.

[nevada 'vegas' jayvon hanson]

Nevada smiled, squeezing his hand gently. He kissed the top of his hand, closing his eyes as his head started to hurt from straining his eyes.

'And I'm your father.' A strange voice in his head said. Nevada drew his eyebrows together, wondering if he always heard voices. 'Your moms so fucked up because she slept with Hades and made a child from hell. You want to remember your boyfriend?'

'Yes..' He thought, biting his lip. Every memory of Jayson came rushing back to him so fast his head hurt. He brought his hands to his head, crying out in pain. He looked over towards him, but still couldn't see him.

'Everything else, you'll have to relearn.' The voice said, then laughed. Nevada had a feeling that included walking.

[jayson thomas christopher]

Jayson tensed as Nevada cried out. "Vegas?" He murmured in worry, leaning over to brushed his hair back, kiss him softly on the lips. "Baby, you okay?"

He worked his jaw. He rubbed his shoulder gently, careful of any wires as he watched him, eyes stressed and tired. He glanced towards the door, wondering if he should go get somebody or not.