[TOUR] On The Road

[sean michael cutler]

Sean remained on hands and knees, shoulders shaking. Trez crouched, hugging Harper gently for a moment.
"Harper I-..." He swallowed, had always told himself it was odd she had the same name. It had haunted him for so long...
"I did..." He rasped brokenly. "And I sat there for a year and-...and realized what I was doing was cos I was afraid..i-in my foster home...I didn't wanna be gay.. So I tried being the bad boy.." His voice cracked and he sat back, gazing at her, jaw trembling. He reached out to touch her hand. "I-...I was sick and scared and neglected...and punishing you f-...for having nothing wrong...it wasn't right...you were beautiful...guys liked you...I was a shell..hiding...what guy at that school you like me? That locker room..lusting a-after all the girls, denying I got excited at the sight of a man undressing..." Tears spilled down his cheeks.

[harper reese lebeau]

Harper leaned close to Trez, more glad that he was here now than she probably ever was. "I.. I wasn't perfect, Sean.. I figured.. people only liked me for my eyes.. I was always depressed.. No one doesn't have anything wrong with them.." She turned over her hand, gently holding his close. She'd never thought in a million years she'd ever be able to look past all the misery her torturer had put her through and forgive him. "You're not the same Sean now as you were then.." She said, gently brushing his hair back. "I mean, you were drunk as fuck and I slept next to you the other night.. I can't be mad at you, Sean.. I have Trez and you have Nash and.. I love you. You're one of my best friends.."

[sean michael cutler]

Sean gazed at her brokenly, closing his eyes and looking away. "Yeah I changed...But I'm still sorry.." He whispered, and got up, wandering back to the bus, arms crossed. He got on the bus and stalked to the kitchen, snatching a drink before sitting on the couch and taking a swallow.

Trez sighed, hugged her close. "He's mad at himself is all." He kissed the side of her head. "He doesn't like thinking about it..."

[harper reese lebeau]

Harper leaned against him, hugging him close. She bit back tears, trying not to break down. "Please don't let go.." She pleaded, holding tightly to him. "You still want me to be yours? Even knowing now what happened?" She asked quietly.

[trez matthew steele]

Trez hugged her tight. "Of course I do, Harper... You couldn't help it..it's alright.." He kissed the top of her head, gazed up at the sky. "Ugh..why does tomorrow's show have to be so far away..? I guess afterwards, we have a day off.." He tilted her chin, kissed her softly. "Come on, we should get back...I can only guess Sean's on that bus causing problems now hm?" He cradled her closer.

[harper reese lebeau]

Harper met the kiss gently, almost finding it hard to believe that she was actually in a relationship with Trez. She got up carefully to her feet, holding tightly to her hand as she followed him to the bus. She almost wished she hadn't said anything now. She wanted everything to be okay.

"You out getting nasty?" Aubri asked from where she sat on the floor and Harper rolled her eyes.

"Yeah, right."

"What happens when you like.. get pregnant? You're gonna get all huge on the bus."

"Again, Virgin Mary." Harper mumbled, not wanting to explain she was on birth control to Aubri in front of the bus.

[trez matthew steele]

Trez held her hand as they got onto the bus, and he went to okay the driver once they were good to leave again. Sean had an empty beer bottle next to him, and Nash in his lap, tears drying on his cheeks. He was obviously still upset, glanced up at Harper brokenly.

[harper reese lebeau]

Nash curled up close to him, slowly tracing his fingers over Sean's chest.

"Please don't get drunk, Sean.. You just got Nash back.. And I'm sure you two have some catching up to do." Harper pleaded quietly, sitting down on the sofa next to him. Nash kissed his jaw gently, obviously content to just be next to Sean again.

[trez matthew steele]

Trez grabbed a water and both his medication bottles, heading to the kitchen to take them, handing Aubri hers.

Sean glanced up at her with a frown, eyebrows furrowing. "'M not getting drunk..." He insisted, pushing the bottle away with his foot and a gusty breath. He kissed Nash, then swallowed.

[harper reese lebeau]

Aubri took her medicine from him and swallowed her pill. Harper couldn't help thinking there was something oddly zombie apocolypse-y about the entire affair. She yawned and shrugged out of her jacket, kicking off her shoes before she climbed into the bunk she shared with Trez.

Nash kissed him back slowly, holding tightly to his shirt.